Sollicitudo Alter Ego

Just like any other human in the world, I have lots of ideas and plan in my head (or my brain?) waiting for their moment to reveal and become real. I also have thousands of criticism about things surround me, like every single thing that I see/meet everyday. Sometimes I written down those thoughts or critics on some of my social media accounts. It was easier and shorter to write down. However, sometimes after I posted it and read them again I felt unsatisfied. I need to described down all. I love details (so much). I want people who read them will able to understand what I was saying and what I meant. But to write long article or to post something that longer than any social media can afford, needs more than desire to share the stories. It also need time to write and patience. It's not easy to just sit down and typed the words that jumping all around in your brain. That what was happening with me. I got few notes-book-daily journal-diaries. And none of them were fulf

I used to able to control my emotion and try to divert the anger by posting on Path, Twitter or at least Facebook. At least, typed words are different with real sound or voice of yelling and screaming. As for today, I kinda lost my control (about 15% of it perhaps) and let my anger took control. I was having a stomach-ache and cramps so I asked one day off from work to stay at home, but then my mind couldn't go away from few tasks I which my responsible to take care with. After few calls, some tasks were done and another problems solved. Busy as if I was in the office. By a call and chitchat with the Boss, I should contact a person who honestly I prefer to avoid. I have reasons to avoid him (if I couldn't say I HATE and angry of him). Few amongst all; not polite, (sounds) cocky, (sounds) offensive, (sounds like) he thought he knows everything more than us, at least me. I said "sounds" because my communication with him were only by phone. Maybe I was too soon