Sollicitudo Alter Ego

17th August. The Independence Day of Indonesia. Merdeka!!!! But my heart is broken and tears keep coming down my face. Independence? What is the real meaning of the word? Are we trully independence now? "We" here refers to the minority communities. Minority in money. Minority in education. Minority in public facilities and services. Minority in races. Minority in religion believes. Are we really independence nowadays, especially now as we celebrate our National Independence Day? I even prefer to use english to pour out my words. I even prefer to post on my blog while hoping this thought would not bring me to harm. Why? Because i am Afraid. Perhaps, because i am not sure. There are riots still happened almost every day in almost every part of the nation. Whom we are independence from? The war with enemies has ended since 70 years ago. However the enemies who we are fighting with now are not from outside of Indonesia. They're our own people. We fight...

Why? Why do i have to stay here for days without any progress? Why should i keep quiet even i witness yhe bad things she did to him? Why all my plans seems falling apart? Why can't i taste any happiness? Probably there are millions of questions which may start with why. Things happen for a reason. Some says. So what are the reasons? When situation's getting harder, most of us will react with "why". Aaargh, why do i even have to write about this. Why do i think that people will read this article?

What is happening to a woman's life once she got married? Living a happily ever after life? Singing joyfully since the sun rises through the days until the evening call?